~~ Poetry ~~

• All poems are written by @bhaal-battle-beer-bard on Tumblr

ℜ𝔢𝔡𝔢𝔪𝔭𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫 𝔏𝔬𝔰𝔱
𝕻𝖆𝖗𝖙 𝟏
𝓐𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖔𝖓

Liar, cheater, thief
A thousand voices scream
In my head, I hear my own, louder than them all
True you were, when I met you
Which one of us was the fool?
Who did fell?
UndeservingWounds deep of centuries
Burden my heart, cut deep, cut it out
Waiting for someone to hold me - giving up hurts less
Maybe not deserving
A paradise with bleeding heart
Meaningless tomorrows
In all eternity
Torture and pain, until you feel nothing at allMouth sewn shut, soul hidden, heart sealed
From all I feared, from all I could ever love and care for
World in flames, crashing down, I don’t care
Electrified with rage and anger
Turning my back on burning cities, whose heroes have forsaken me
Self-righteousness deserves to perish in flames
Can my heart come back from this envious dark?
How can I – filled with hate – deserve your love?
Your heart is without compare
Care, compassion - I never felt before
Is enough good in me left, to be loved?My love that I call Aristen
Do I deserve to be with you? To be loved?
Or is it good, that my name will be forgotten?
The undead eternity that I must suffer, just erased it like dust?
Like all I had and ever was, since this fatal winter’s night
Drowning in the sea of my suffering and misery
But you give me breath and light, like the winter constellations in the starry sky
Soft hands holding me - suddenly some silver in my darkest night
Your taste is like poetry in the airSweet sorceress of mine
Golden lips, golden hair
The light of your smile so bright, I have to close my eyes
But why do tears glisten in the night?
Moonlight upon you
Darkness within you
You are scared of failing, but I see you flyYour darkness never scares, your heart however does
Beating, beating
Tender and loving
Breaking through my hands?
Or is it mine to break in the end?
Your eyes see stars in me, when I am nothing more than a burnt-up comet
Lying in ashes to rot
The more you see in me, the more I crave to be
But can I be? But can I be?
Good enough for this love of thee?
When all I see, is an endless nothing in the mirror
Meaningless hollow nothingness
Emptiness, my heart an endless voidDon’t be afraid
You are not the monster of your darkness
Your worst sin I see, is hating yourself, giving others more than they deserve
Not letting down, those who have abandon you
You destroy and despise yourself for nothing
You don’t need absolution
For me, you are the last light of all daysWith you I see light and colours in the dark
Not reckless, not careless, together a matter to the world
You showed me compassion and forgiveness
Showed me I can love and care
You saved me and gave me everything
I don’t want you to leave, because your memory would sing in my blood until the end of all days
You make me believe, we are more than what we were made to be

ℜ𝔢𝔡𝔢𝔪𝔭𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫 𝔏𝔬𝔰𝔱
𝔓𝔞𝔯𝔱 2
𝓐𝔯𝔦𝔰𝔱𝔢𝔫

My love that goes by the name of Astarion
Will our love survive the night?
The day, the light?
Or was it just an illusion born from the darkness?
Will you see me for what I am in the morning light and run?
Created in an abyss of dark urgings
I was not made good enough, to be lovedWhat is a tree, with roots of evil?
Bears only crimson buds of suffering
Rise to the sky
My soul cry out at night
A flower, rotting and decaying without light
Screaming for blood
Touched by your gentle hands, bonding us with a red tie
My darkness ignites by your stars’ lightI try to be good, but the dark drags me down
Blood and emptiness devour my hands
Teeth ripping out my flesh
The light nowhere to be seen
Doomed to rot
Or the mercy of fate?
Deserved in all eternityCut me out, run away
Monsters of mine should eat me form inside, but never ever touch you
Creatures, the monster with my face looking at me every day
Clawing, screaming, drowning my head
I should be banned and dead and not held in your lover’s armsTwisted mirror
Deadly reflection
I see a face myself unlovable, not worth your acceptance
But your pale hand reaching out for me
You never judge, forgive what I did
How could I deserve someone not looking at me in disgust, but with compassion?
You have seen my darkest nightmares and loved me anywayYou feel it too, you see it too
Smile without joy
Death within life
A crack in the empty mirror
Burning in blood, drowning on air
Hurting you is hurting meSo my tears do pray and my heart will ask
Screaming at the night’s sky
I want to crawl inside your chest and die
I want to be the secret inside your heart, maybe than my demons cannot find us
Our story will be a love song and not a blood-stained balladAstarion, the name of my love forevermore
You’ve seen troubles and blue like me
Your heart beating, making mine racing fast
You survived torture, bigger, stronger men and kings would fall to
Still able to love, still able to hope
For me your heart and soul are dauntless
With you the night is an endless dream
If I go, If I die
I would die with your name on my lipsYour past carved into your soul like mine
Compare our scars
Erase them forever
Overwrite them with the poem of our love psalm
Sins and heart open – devotion fears nothing to hide
Your hand on my cheek, keeps my head up high
Above the bloody water
You saved me from my darkness
Let us make it out alive
Escape the circles of damnation
Can we be more, we were made to be?
More than what we were condemned to be

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~~ A Million Miles Apart In This Room ~~

Lost lovers and vampire years of one’s life, piling up, drag me down
Heavy like a thorn’s crown
Falling to the ground, faces forgotten rotting autumn leaves
How should I spawn deserve Aristen’s love and a heart’s peace?Wretched, torn, bleed and broken
In my name the cruelty of blood awoken
I should die, I should burn
But for your heart, Astarion, I do yearnMy body a graveyard, my soul the coffin I lie in
Dead in the ground, forever remembering my sin
Decaying, decaying, decaying
Death obeying
A vampire’s heart dead and cold, but still able to break
Suddenly awoken by Aristen’s true love’s fateCruelty, cruelty – written upon my face
Never deserving the touch of love for a slayer’s grace
Grimace in the mirror, “Monster!” Children should scream
Nothing more as the shadow of their dark dream
They call me “hero”, even though I should no longer be
How could I set Astarion’s enslaved soul free?Beautiful sorceress of storm and light, like an idol you shine
I wish so much to make you mine
Or would my bloody, dirty hands only defile you?
Because this is all I can do…Locks and skin of silver and snow
You seem so pure like the stars that your name does know
My heart’s dear
But shedding this fresh fallen snow with blood is my fear
Biting on glass, choking on words
Memories they all do hurt
Will I ever prove myself worthy of your love?
When a dark urge within me only deserves a death’s shoveMemories they hurt, they burn, bursting me into flames
Burning my body into ashes, until nothing remains
My eyes craving for light
But my soul drawn and bond to the shadows of the night
By heart and curse
Good or worse
Will I ever prove myself worthy of your love?
When my song seems sung by a mourning doveI wish I would burn, forgotten forever, all angels and my name begone
Then the darkness would have lost and would have won
But you see no darkness in me, I feel
Only how could I be with you, when falling night thickens my fate’s wheel?Who will come to save me now?
Who will come to save me now?
Am I worth of redemption?
Am I worth of redemption?
How could I deserve your saving?
How could I deserve your saving?
Will I ever be worthy of your love?
Will I ever be worthy of your love?

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